Research project: OUR WORLD.

Our world has many characteristics. It is very old, and gracious. But it can be dangerous, disturbing, and
annoying. But it can also be kind, beautiful, and joyful. But life can be that way, too. And some people can't
take it anymore. Literally.
So I guess we can kiss the fire-fighters saving cats from trees goodbye, because they seem on the "sweet"
side of the world. And the sweet side, well, it's ignoring us. So, really all i'm trying to say is that everything is cold, around us, but ignoring it won't make it better.
I started using  an anxiety website to get information, and opened up a quiz to see what kind of questions these people were asked. The main questions were the first ten.
1) How old are you? a)7-12 yrs. b) 13-17 yrs. c) 18- 30 yrs. d) 31-54 yrs. e) 55 or older.
2) Have you consumed drugs? if yes, please specify below:
3) Have you had a visit to a hospital before for desperation?
4) have you had suicidal thoughts before?
5) do you have eating disorders?
6) what are you having trouble with? (ex. schoolwork, work, family, ect.)
7) What is depression to you? Based on your definition, do you believe your in a phase through it?
8) Does your family know you are here at this moment?
9) do you have any siblings?
10) what are you feeling right now?

And what is interesting is that this quiz that came directly from the website was created by kids my age, when they were going through this. And they all wrote entries which are listed and shown on the website.
But what else I found interesting is that when i read the questions, it gave me chills. Why? Because I read a book called "it's kind of a funny story" way before the movie came out. In fact, I haven't even seen the movie.
But this book is directly toward what I was researching. And it amazed me i could answer all those questions in the anxiety quiz with Craig's responses that I remembered.

But i would like to write about social issues such as depression, becuase i feel like I am very familiar with those terms, and it is something i would like to change... Something worth fighting for. Something that is big everywhere, something that we can actually change.

Dear Mr. President

Dear Mr. President
Come talk a walk with me
Let's pretend we're just two people and
you're not better than me
I'd like to ask you some questions and
we can speak honestly

What do you feel when you see
 all the homeless on the street?
who do pray for at night
before you go to sleep?
what do you feel when you
look in the mirror?
are you proud?

How do you sleep while
the rest of us cry?
How do you dream when a mother
has no chance to say goodbye?
How do you walk with your
head held high?
Can you even look me in the eye?
and tell me why?

Dear Mr. President
Were you a lonely boy?
Are you a lonely boy?
How can you say
no child is left behind
we're not dumb and we're not blind
they're all sitting in your cells
while you pave the road to hell

what kind of father would
take his own daughter's rights away
and what kind of father would
hate his own daughter if she we're gay?
I can only imagine
what the first lady has to say
you've come a long way
from whiskey and cocaine!

How do you sleep while
the rest of us cry?
how do you dream when a mother
has no chance to say goodbye?
how do you walk with your
head held high?
can you even look me in the eye?

Let me tell about hard work
minimum wage with the baby on the way
Let me tell about hard work
rebuilding your house after
the bombs took them away
Let me tell about hard work
building your bed out of a cardboard box

Let me tell about hard work
hard work hard work
you don't know nothing about hard work
hard work hard work
Oh

How do you sleep at night?
how do you walk with your head held high?

Dear Mr. President
you'd never take a walk with Me
Would you?

This is a song called Dear Mr. President (obviously) By the great artist and songwriter named Pink. This is a song that explains how The president is not doing a great job fixing the problems of the United states. The song itself, is very self-explanatory. The lyrics mean alot to all the issues that the members of this country are going through. Even though it doesn't say all the possible problems, it lists at least 10 of them.

 And when I picked this song I realized that the lines " How can you say/no child is left ebhind/ we're not dumb at we're not blind/ they're all sitting in your cells/ while you pave the road to hell"
while you pave the road to hell. This line had 2 meaning: and they both would be very symbolic. One of them is to pave the road to hell as in continue paving it and paving it, and paving it.... wasting money instead of giving it to many homeless organizations in need to money. And the other is to pave the road to hell, as in paving a road that will lead this country into chaos! but, still both meanings are very important to me, because I can make connections to them.

And, this song is exactly what you wouldn't want  to hear. Its bringing all the problems together. And the facts that the people from here are trying to ignore. But not only that, not everyone has the nerve to come straight up and tell them, because out of all, it's the hardest part. But while the light of the country now has low spark, we need to fix it. To fix you, America.So we keep reviewing the situation with this song, and it makes me wanna change things for the better. But with the world we live in things just get so crazy and living life gets hard to do, we have to fight to get through. And this is a really good song.

The social awareness Project! pt. 2

      An emerging issue at the moment is the teenage suicide. These are just kids trying to fit in; Trying to find themselves. But all the other teenangers out there, are just judging. And yet, they don't have a clue either.
If you hurt someone, eaither emotionally, mentally, or physically, you don't feel their pain right away. And sometimes you don't even feel it.  They do. And things now, spread easily with the new technology. So, as they say, what goes around, comes around.
Now, really, this is just one of the writing assignments for social awareness. But it made me, truly, more aware. So this is #6. write a poem or song responding to a specific social problem.

So based on all that i've seen on trhe news. This is my poem responding to teenage suicide(especially for the gender cases that there has been lately):

"No.
 No, I can't live like this.
 I can't look like this anymore.
 I need to cry because I feel like crap.
I guess that it had been a good idea to plan my death,
 after all,
to have everything set up
for when i'm ready. 
I never meant to hurt anyone.
 and I did that.
And I really hurt myself...in many ways.
I feel completely broke inside.
Their shadow....
Just their eyes-
 I can feel them stinging.
 Their body looming over me-
numbing my mind.
aching.
Just their sight.
Nothings worth it anymore.
 Shut me down"